Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Cody Stewart
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